I understand the feeling of worthlessness. I feel that each and every day. I understand feeling petty. I understand feeling alone.
People aren’t going to care, not the vast majority. I know it’s not what you want to hear but it’s the truth. That’s why you find your small friend group that you can share everything with. That’s all you need. People who don’t judge, people who accept you for you, that’s what’s important. Those friends will affirm you, tell you you’re not worthless.
Because you’re not worthless. You’re full of worth and purpose. I understand not feeling that way, like maybe everyone else has worth but you. But that’s not true. You exist, right? Then you have worth. Ephesians 2:10 says “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”
And petty? Absolutely not. They’re your feelings, your emotions. They have just as much value as anyone else’s. Don’t let anyone tell you they don’t, because they’re lying.
I’m sorry that people don’t understand, that you can’t be real around them. Or that they hate you. I truly am sorry.
But know that at the very least, you have God. He created you, he won’t leave you just because you have problems. No, it’s much more likely he’s even closer to you because of the problem. You just have to reach out. And you don’t have to be some persona or disguise around him.. He’ll love you even if you’re happy or you’re sad, you’re anxious or you’re optimistic.
And the darkness? I live in the darkness sometimes. It sucks, but it’s not permanent, friend. The depression won’t last. The anxiety won’t last. The sickness won’t last. You will come through, you will fight through, shining like gold.
Do you know how a diamond is made? Through heat and pressure. This is the pressure. This is the heat. And you’re gonna make it through on the other side, better than before. It’s just a temporary trial to make you stronger, to make your faith stronger.
1 Corinthians 10:13 tells us “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”
If you’re reading that, it does kinda sound like things will be easy. You’re probably thinking, “well, the Bible’s lying! It’s not easy.” Except here’s what you don’t realize: you can bear more than you think. It’s just like building a muscle. You stretch that muscle as far as it can go, then you let it rest. Then you stretch it again, put pressure and weight on it, repeat the process. That’s what building faith is like. It hurts, I know. It sucks, but you’ll look back one day and be thankful you had to deal with all this. It may not seem like it now, but remember God’s not just concerned with your present, he’s concerned with your future.
Stay salty, stay swaggy. You guys are awesome and I hope this encouraged someone.